so we HAD to get paint today, HAD to move the soda machine and bed out of the den, HAD to. we go to lowes, get the shit we need figuring we'd get home, move the shit around, and let my mother do her thing. basically to get her off our backs because we've been hearing this shit for the past week how it HAS to get done.

whatever

we get home and we can hear them on the back porch laughing and drinking. 3 hours go by. she calls up hammered and is like 'does craig need help moving the soda machine?' i was like 'no he did it himself' (meanwhile they all sat and watched him do it). and since she's trashed doesn't want to do anything today-well that's nice. our whole day is ruined now, thank you. nag nag nag over the shit needing to get done today and then sit around drinking. real fucking nice.

craig is so pissed and i can't blame him. i'm on the verge of tears i'm so mad myself

i swear i am ready to say 'fuck it' and put a for sale sign out in the yard and just move. my mother is driving me crazy-calls me at 8:30 this morning to announce she was going to walmart to get storage totes. i was like 'ok....'. the reasoning? 'to pack up all that crap in the den'. i instantly got uber pissed-the den is where the bulk of my toy collection is-it's not getting packed up-it's MY COLLECTION. nobody in my family has ever gotten the toy collecting thing-and this was just another jab she could manage. i know if she was left alone in there all of it would be packed away. not happy. not your house. and she said something to craig about us going to buy paint today-news to me and craig. we had no such plans. she seriously needs to back off. i appreciate the help, but BACK OFF

nate was so cute on the phone last night. he was like 'how are you feeling? what did you do today? are you relaxing?' lol! my little cutie. i miss him something fierce. he'll be home wednesday.

winnie was mewing like crazy this morning. she kept going to the now empty fish bowl-normally where she drinks her water. gross? yes. well mew mew mew. i got her a little bowl and put tap water in it-gave it to her. she looked at me like 'seriously?'. i got a bottle of water for MYSELF and she started mewing loud and rubbing. so i pretended to pour the bottled water into the dish. didn't work. she PUSHED THE BOWL to the edge of the counter like she was going to tip it. then came running over and rubbing on my bottled water....dude...you're that spoiled you have to have bottled water? i gave in and she drank out of the bowl....

we got one cleaned out-i'm putting all craig's winter work clothing in it, and if that works then we *might* be able to fit all our stuff into the teeny closet in our new room. *might* (i may resort to infomercial products on this one). my mom started taking apart the bed we're giving to nate that was in the den, and was huffing and puffing dramatically about it when craig came home. he sat and ate some leftovers for lunch while she put on a show-like he was supposed to jump in and help. then all of a sudden she 'had to go'. and left. i had been trying to nap and she just can't be quiet about anything. something simple like 'here box up this' is a 'OK! NOW....OK!' (yes she talks to herself and yes she yells it-just to be heard). so no nap. and she SAW i was trying to sleep-i even said something about needing to lay down. AAAAAAHHHH!

nate called last night-i asked him what color room he wanted and got 'blue'. i was like 'blue again?'. he said 'well a dark blue, but not too dark, but....a nice blue'. i was like 'ok a medium blue?'. 'ummm...yeah...that'll be nice'

our fish balthier died yesterday. he was a cool fish, not as cool as neji was, but still a good fish. i don't know if i want another one. i had one beta for 6 years, and lately i can only get them to last a year or two.

i  hope my fabric comes in today so i can work on the valances. then i need to make miss lish some retro kitchen curtains! whoot!

so i got myself to every 5 hours on the meds. hopefully this works for today and the weekend. then sunday i'll try for every 6 hours. *knock on wood this works!*

i'm getting really nervous about this room moving project. like REALLY nervous. the den has no closets (well there's a teeny one in the office to use-but it's teeny compared to the one we have now. and i'm seriously freaking over our bed being on the floor in there for some reason. or bed is messed up-we have a 2 piece full size box spring-so we can't have a bed frame, it just splits in the middle. trust me, we've tried everything. we could use a new mattress anyway, but ugh. so much more work than i wanted to even think about. i know it'll all come together, i'm just a nervous wreck about it. my mother is like so gung ho about getting all this shit done by the weekend-she even wants to paint the living room. ugh! stress! nate's room is pretty much set to be moved, and our room is ready. they just need to be painted and switched-and the den emptied out-it won't take much once the den is set to get the kids' rooms done. ugh! ahhh!

i got a shift at the store next week! from 2-5 on wednesday! i'm excited to go back. hopefully i'll be ok on my feet for that long

i am not doing anything today. yesterday i did the dishes, made dinner, did some phone calls, etc. i felt good about being able to do stuff. but today there's really nothing to do and i didn't sleep well last night, so yeah-uber lazy today

my mother is up in the attic moving things around. it sounds like she'll come crashing through the ceiling any second now...

i ordered fabric to make curtains for the kids' rooms. a cow jumping over the moon pattern for kairi and misc. birds on a tan color for nate. valance curtains are so easy to make, i couldn't see spending $20 a piece at a store for them. i got extra material for nate's room so i can make him a pillowcase too for his couch. and they had these pre-printed plush panels to make two stuffed frogs. got them figuring it's time to teach the kid to sew. nice summer project for him.

i really want a wendy's frosty something fierce, have since yesterday. maybe i can whine enough to craig to get one for me tonight

so yesterday i tried to go from every 4 hours to every 5 on my meds. i felt weird. like mild crampyness, so went back to every 4. i don't know if it's me overreacting, if it's contractions, gas, whatever. i'm in such a panic mode about going back into the hospital i just don't want to chance it.

and yes i did watch the michael jackson tribute yesterday-i mean there was nothing else on. to be honest-it made me sick. the fact they had the friggin casket there was just a bit over the top. the only performance i thought was good was jennifer hudson, and the only speakers that i think did a good job was queen latifa and magic johnson. the rest were just...please. esp sharpton as usual who was full of his opinions than actual sincerity over MJ's death. anything to get heard with that one. i swear someone could give the man a cupcake and puppy and he'd still bitch about it. mariah carey sucked major ass, and her dress was totally inappropriate. yes we've seen your fun bags, give it a rest.

we had some bad ass storms yesterday, last night there was a real bad one.

my mother is going to drive me nuts with her cleaning. she's got nate's room almost done and ready for the move to the bigger room. but she's pushing it. i told her that the closet in that room doesn't need to be cleaned out since we never use it-everyday like 3-4x she asks if anyone's cleaned out the closet yet. no. same as yesterday. doesn't need to get done. and she wants to move the bed in the den-you can't do that by yourself, but she kept saying 'i'm going to start moving the bed' i was like 'no you're not'. and harping 'when is craig moving the soda machine?' i don't know. finally she got tired of getting told no and went home. the house doesn't need to be done THIS week. it's driving me nuts

i had Ardi redo Mugen's faceup since he managed to chip the MSC off his nose...again. i've never seen the boy so serious! and i've had him for years now! the doll that joined me and captain schlumpy's geekdom

ok so went to the dr today-everything is kosher and i got a note saying i can go back to work one day a week starting next week. coolio! i'm also to space out my meds so that it's not every 4 hours, but gradually get it to every 6 hours...ok. hope that works! but then they tell me i still need to do my sugar tolerance test. i was supposed to do it during my last appt-but i was in the hospital and they didn't do it. ok-i have to drink this magic punch of sugary goodness, then they 'take a simple blood test' to see how it goes. ok. kicker-you have the drink the punch then wait and hour...in the office. swell. so me and peg sat there bitching about relatives for an hour. i go in for my 'simple blood test'. SIMPLE MY ASS-they took 3 tubes of blood out of me. by the time i got home between the sugar, loss of blood, and not eating i was a mess. FUN DAY

dear gawd craig is vacuuming the house....i've never seen this...it's amazing...i swear the boy is nesting worse than i am

planetdoll listed their new elf-i reaaaaallly like her....lots....i almost want a tan one-that color's pretty kick ass. what would i do with an extra head though? hmmm... i sold 2 games and my littlest pet shop koala too-that made me happy to have some funds. even though i've been a good mouse and saving up a bit here and there, i hated not having any incoming income.

speaking of dolls-mugen and nore came home today! i haven't had the energy to open them up and put them back together. tomorrow when i have light and energy i'll play dorries.

if i ever see one of these on a car i'll seriously find the nearest heavy thing and wing it at the vehicle. it's going to be just as bad as when dale earnhardt died and all you see is the friggin #3 with angel wings on every friggin truck pulling into a discount beer store.

i should get this...i mean hell why not?

oh dang i want him too. fairyland just posted pics of little scar face minifee shiwoo. he'd be such a cool pirate....anyone have $370 laying around for me to have so i can get him? lol!

i have a dr appointment like in the middle of the day today. gah i hate that. and i'm really dreading this one for some stupid reason. i'm afraid they're going to surprise me with something or find something wrong, etc. i guess my worst fear is them taking me off the meds and me going into a contraction-fest again. i do not want to go back into the hospital. my arms are still all bruised up from all the blood they took the last time. not fun, nope nope

and the fact my mother has to drive me. i feel like a loser. and she is a terrible driver, heavy on the brakes, thinks she's cool, etc. it's horrible. and she asks stupid questions. when i was in the hospital she was asking and asking, same thing over and over. drives me up a friggin wall. the best was her asking me all these dumb ass things WHILE i was having a contraction. i would just put my hand up and tell her to shut up. once i even threw her out. and the 2nd time i had to go in my MIL met us there since they live 2 minutes from the hospital. omg. she acted like i was going to die. came bursting out of the ER entrance with all these nurses... got nate all upset. i told the nurses not to let her or my mother in til i said ok. i did not need that drama crap from either of them.

i sat yesterday and watched 'deadliest catch' all day...yup...allllll day....

set off this morning to do the grocery shopping by himself. something he hasn't done in YEARS. i know he's going to come home in a bad mood. poor guy. i hate grocery shopping myself, i know the pain. the plan was for me to walk with him, point things out, etc. but after seeing me walk outside to see his new 'zen garden' and what a mess i was from that, the plan was dropped.

i did a semi-cleaning of the fridge-i know i'm going to get scolded for it.

i think i need to list some stuff on ebay. do i really need my limited littlest pet shop koala or $20? yeah that's how much the little shit is going for. i think i need the $20 more right now! i'll list my games too. still need to weed through the BJD stuff, and take pics of the 2 hats i managed to get done-list those on etsy. i'll get money somehow!

tomorrow i have a dr appt. i dread the damn thing. i have to be driven there, gawd knows what it'll hold for me either. bah. plus mugen and nore will be home tomorrow. i'll prolly have 0 energy to put them back together and take pics. bah

i'm sure i'll have plenty of time on tuesday since nothing'll be on tv besides the *&^%^# jackson tribute. as an artist the man was brilliant, as a human being-well...i have my opinions. me and craig have been discussing it alot lately, and watching alot of star wars. yeah we're bonding.

*pic by yoda*

nate's first year in the indian lake fishing derby! he caught 4 sunfish and won a nice tackle box! kid is thrilled!

so all my days are basically blending together since it's like groundhog day-same thing over and over. didn't even realize today was the 4th of july...wow...that's sad.

winnie missed seeing me get up at 6am to take my meds. i got up 10 minutes to 6, usually after that round i just stay up, but i said screw it and went back to bed. she came flying in at 5 minutes after 6-got right up in my face, licking my nose and mewing at me. i was like 'i already took my pill winnie'. she stopped and went down to the foot of the bed and made herself a nest and slept in with me. cat is seriously warped with this home care stuff.

i'm highly intrigued by a doll. like a lot. i don't need nor can afford a new doll at the moment, but really i'm so drawn to the sculpt and they're pretty cheap. the only thing is they're an odd size (27cm), and it'd have to be a girl (or boobies would meet their doom via dremel). but i find myself wanting this one so badly. and they're having an event where if i buy one i get a free head-not that it matters, what the hell would i do with a head, but it's tempting. it's of course the elf sculpt in the pic-it goes on sale tomorrow. there's more pics here too. it could be a little companion for nore.

to amuse myself (since i'm so board) i am issuing a 'demonic doll challenge' to everyone-doll collectors and not. what to do? go on ebay and find the scariest ass doll you can find and post a link in response. like this- scarey_ass_shit

rules-the title cannot say 'scarey' in it-you have to look! post as many links as you want! i need a laugh!

ok since i have nothing better to do with my life right now other than being the 'easy bake baby oven', i keep looking up the weirdest shit. no surprise the queen of all doll morons is at it again-my GAWD when are you going to get it that nobody CARES!? i swear this one is going to make the wikipedia bjd whore page (which is really funny-but the fun dollfie facts-yeah that's all her). the only thing this woman has is her dolls, AND IT SHOWS.

Craig has off today. i hope i don't drive him nuts with my excessive whining and crying. that's all i did yesterday was whine and cry. after i beat Eternal Sonata, Craig got up and got all fanboy and was yelling 'you beat that game, you beat that shit gooood!' all in my face to get me to laugh. i just stared.

we also had a discussion on Star Wars vehicles. TIE fighters are the coolest. and i asked him if he ever worked on one of the Jawa's RVs. he said yeah-he'd done some track work on them before

ok so i'm like 3 battles from completing eternal sonata. i'm in a tower and know there's 4 bosses to fight then another bigger boss-but i've only managed to beat 3 of them. it's all go up here, now down here, with any luck you'll end up here crap. ugh! i need to just go all over the place to find this other boss so i can move onto the next boss, then it's the end fight. almost done-i bet i'll do it tomorrow.

i really need to use a burst of energy to take pics of stuff i need to sell-360 games and some anime, plus some doll stuff. i have wigs and clothes i will never use. ugh. energy, that's the funny part! having no income sucks ass. and i can't sew well since i shake so much. ugh

**EDIT** ok so i beat it....wow...end boss was quite a surprise! and the ending was so loooong and boring. i was like 'just kiss already dammit!'